… excuse my french.
Hi my name is Camille Cruz, or better known as one half of Joseph Fortuno’s makeup & move-in team. A few weeks ago, Joseph asked me to write something for his blog and since I haven’t watched Jane the Virgin, caught up with The Legend of Korra, or listened to Lady Gaga’s ARTPOP album, I figured I should probably do this before he gives up on me entirely as a friend.
Unfortunately, I have a chronic illness. I’m sure you’re familiar with it, it’s called writer’s block. Joseph, however, told me to just “Let it flow” & “Don’t think just type”. He’s currently chowing down on some Chinese food to satisfy his midnight munchies. So if you’re hungry like Joseph at 2:51 A.M, here’s some cluttered food for thought. Did you buy your ticket? Because you’re gonna need one for this train of thought.
I would recollect on 2015, but as Edna Mode from The Incredibles would say, “I never look back, darling. It distracts from the now.” So instead of that long walk down memory lane, here’s something else to chew on. These are some of my resolutions for 2016, or rather a newer and, arguably, better way of living... for me anyway.
1. “Don’t be scared to be a b****.”
Number one is quite simple, and it resonates with me tremendously. I’ve lived a rather soft spoken life, one of passivity. I’ve done so to maintain a “pretty image”, and to avoid leaving bad impressions on others. In doing this, I’ve subconsciously let others dictate the way I live. But here’s a huge too-da-loo to that. It’s time to be a b**** and not care about what others have to think about it. Because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind, word to Bernard Baruch. So please don’t think you can read me like a book, because I’ll gladly ask you to read between the lines instead.
2. “Wade through the bull.”
Number two is how I got through 2015, and it’s pretty self-explanatory. There’s no doubt that this new year won’t be filled entirely with sunshine, lollipops and rainbows. So for those dark, unsweet and dull days, you need to cancel all of your pity parties and throw yourself a party in celebration of you instead. It’s so important to remember that whether you’re knee-deep or chin-deep in bull, this too shall pass. So dip your toe into that thick sludge of bull. Relish in it. Allow it to change you. & before you know it, you’ll be wading into the uncharted territory of happiness that you had forgotten all about.
3. “Offline is the new luxury.”
Number three is one I still have a mental tug-of-war with. I had the whole nine yards with social media- Instagram, Snapchat, Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr, Vine, Myspace, Edmodo, and Tinder (kidding). But I have recently taken it upon myself to sideline these distractions, and managed to tackle the two that distracted me the most into retirement, Instagram and Snapchat. During this hiatus, I have noticed my detachment towards my phone, except for the occasional feline check-up on Neko Atsume, which has been quite a luxury. However, I have realized that these social media platforms are simply vessels for my memories more than anything, and if you know me, I am a sucker for hoarding memories. I have yet to decide whether going offline or the documentation of my life is the luxury, but until then, I’ll keep you posted.
So those are some of my New Year’s Resolutions. Do what you will with it. Last word of advice before this train of thought enters the land of Nod.
“Go out in the world and f*** it up beautifully.” -John Waters
It’s been great 2015.