"Change, shit... I guess change is good for any of us"
As the great Tupac says, change is good for anybody. I, for one, am not a fan of change. I live for routine tasks. Graduating high school last year I know for sure I'm not the only one who can say they went through any big changes, but I certainly didn't go through that drastic of a change.
I'm still living with my family, yet I still can't go anywhere, going to school with mostly the same people, and being in the same church group since sophomore year. Although my life stayed more or less the same, most of the people in my life were going out to bigger and better things changing their lives. Some of the closest people to me moved to Southern California in schools that are way too far for them to visit on the weekly. Some moved on to join the Navy and the Military. And me? I'm still here, learning to embrace how different but similar my life is now.
Leaving little ol' me to experience change all by herself. Don't get me wrong; I'm proud of all my friends for what they are accomplishing in life, but when it comes to myself I had to step back and wonder...
Is living life routine the life I want?
It took me about halfway into my first year at college to realize that change will only come unless I make it come. I want to change how people see me. At Hercules, I was known as a lazy girl that wore sandals all the time. The one who was half-assed almost all her classes and, frankly, had a bad attitude about everyone and everything. You can't help but want to change that.
I want to be more independent. Being in high school, you're nothing without your "squad". But now that all three have moved away, I have reflected on what I want to be and reflected on how I want to develop myself. When I started working at Peet's Coffee, I didn't know anyone there. It was great. It wasn't until I was with people that I never knew to let me be comfortable being myself- someone who is loud and more or less a happy go lucky person.
As my first spring break of college comes to an end, I look back and see all the people that my friends and I have become: award winners, aspiring musicians, marine officers in training, nurses, parents. And me? A barista that's studying to be a dental hygienist. I might have not moved away from the East Bay, attend a community college, only see my friends every few months and work at a local coffee shop, but it's these little steps of letting go and being by myself that let me become the best version of myself.